Friday, December 08, 2006
happy baby`
seneca likes to smile. a lot. it's tough not to get her to smile. of course, if she's not smiling you may see the marshmellow face as it slides into full-force freak-out and that's kinda worth catching, so it's not so bad when she cries, never lasts for long. simple cues. food. diaper. sleep. active. the cycle of life. everything else is to be absorbed - and the happiness with which Seneca is sponging-up her existance is very special to be a part of.
the past week, alone with her, has been amazing. learning about each other, creating a bond. months ago, the first time seneca smiled at me, my heart raced, i pulled her out of the carseat and bobbed her little head. she cried a little and i felt as if i'd lost her trust... which is silly, but this week alone with her i really feel like i've gained it - and that's something a lot of men, fathers, don't necessarily get to experience at this age.
what i've found is this perfect little person, learning by leaps and bounds, very happy to be here, to be aware, to be learning, and to be included. she'll sleep and play on her own, but prefers to be held and played with, unless she's enjoying SportsCenter, in which case it's all about being in the swing. i kinda feel bad about her watching tv, but after her 10a witching hour, then a feeding, she's in active mode, but i have to work... SportsCenter (must be the charlie morrison in her) makes her happy. nature shows, not so much. law and order. nah. she needs terrel owens, barry bonds. what kind of dad would i be to deny her happiness!? ok, justification over. time to make dinner. seneca's out cold, it's go time.
the past week, alone with her, has been amazing. learning about each other, creating a bond. months ago, the first time seneca smiled at me, my heart raced, i pulled her out of the carseat and bobbed her little head. she cried a little and i felt as if i'd lost her trust... which is silly, but this week alone with her i really feel like i've gained it - and that's something a lot of men, fathers, don't necessarily get to experience at this age.
what i've found is this perfect little person, learning by leaps and bounds, very happy to be here, to be aware, to be learning, and to be included. she'll sleep and play on her own, but prefers to be held and played with, unless she's enjoying SportsCenter, in which case it's all about being in the swing. i kinda feel bad about her watching tv, but after her 10a witching hour, then a feeding, she's in active mode, but i have to work... SportsCenter (must be the charlie morrison in her) makes her happy. nature shows, not so much. law and order. nah. she needs terrel owens, barry bonds. what kind of dad would i be to deny her happiness!? ok, justification over. time to make dinner. seneca's out cold, it's go time.
# posted by jeff @ 5:39 PM 
